What up super secret blog? I think only one person still reads this. If you are reading this, hi peanut!

I am starting to feel extreme apathy towards certain "friends" in my life. I find myself wanting to move to another city just to get away from them. I no longer feel connected to Cari or the burlesque troupe and I'm not sure how to admit to myself that I want to quit. In all honesty, I just want to kick Cari out of my wedding as well simply because of her toxicity and the drama she brings with her into everything she does. How can I stay friends with someone who exploits their child and whose husband gropes me at his own party while she shows no remorse for his actions after the fact?
I admit that I am impulsive on a lot of my actions and don't always think everything through before I commit to them. And because of this I was quick to assigning bridesmaids without even letting my engagement sink in.
I dunno, I guess everyone is growing up and with that we are all slowly growing apart. Being an adult sucks and I'm not even fully responsible for myself yet.