Snow White feels helpless. There must be something she can do to bring her Prince back. But the Evil Queen has put a spell over both of them. A manipulative, hateful, evil spell. A spell of lies and sabotage. Only the Queen and her Prince can fix this. She must give him his space, go back to her cottage and let him alone in his Kingdom.

Her heart feels destroyed. Broken into so many tiny little pieces that cannot be glued back together. She's full of confusion. She's full of uncertainty and yet she is quite certain of what will happen. All she can do is wait.

She has never felt her heart break like this before. She feels helpless. She hurt him; lied to him. There is nothing she can do but wait. It's all up to him. She sits on the tree stump letting the tears roll down her cheeks. Prince Beat is gone. He is not there by her side to hold her and kiss her tears away. Not even her dwarves are there for comfort. Snow White wonders what will happen, if he will continue to be her Prince. But why should he? She's ruined everything. She wants to change for him. But he has to be willing to help her.

I have stopped being friends with Andy. It's for the best. She never trusted me, I never trusted her. I won't bad mouth her and go into details. I will just leave it at that and be done with it. Bert will continue to be her friend and I'm glad. I know that he can help her in a lot of ways. Hopefully he can get her out her "don't trust anyone" shell. Maybe then we can be friends.
I am so happy right now. Bert is on the bed reading, and every time I look over, I just want to jump on the bed and wrap my arms around him and tell him how much I love him. He looks like a child, pure and so beautiful with their innocence. Amazing. Absolutely amazing. I love him so much. He is right. We match. I am so good to and for him and he is so good to and for me. I wish everyone was as happy and filled with love as I am at this very moment. :)

I wish I was more secure with myself. I just can't seem to be strong and confident in who I am. I never feel good enough. Just for once it would be nice to be the "hot one" at a party. In the words of Cat, I need a "Kick Ass Red Lipstick" day. I keep talking about my birthday. Makes me feel a bit pretentious.
I saw "The Passion of the Christ" today. Amazing. I moved me. I found it to be very powerful. I always believe that Jesus existed, I just don't agree with Christianity. But I will admit that I have much more respect for him and understand better the story of his crucifixion.
Bert and I had a very good talk tonight. And he "loved the shit" out of me. Felt good to be grabbed like that and cuddled so hard and good. Made my face and heart smile. I love him more and more each day. Make fun of me for sounding cliche, but it's true. I feel as though this is the best relationship I've been in. And it just keeps getting better. We're able to work out our problems and talk about what bothers us. Sometimes it's hard to hear him say that another girl is hot and whatnot, but I know where his heart is. :)
I don't have much else to say. Just felt the need to update.